10.7.13

Lapse

     Alhamdulillah, I'm very grateful for the opportunity that Allah given to me. Happy besides Ramadhan is a 'Glory Month', it always reminds me back to the memories of two years ago where the first time I met again with (crush when junior hi-school') then-became my closest now. It was a long story yet I never ever get bored about, until I and him said 'Berkah Ramadhan' everytime we talk about that unexpected meeting.

     Everything was running smooth, warm and sweet. Meeting-back again brought us to several months...eeem round four months for 'pdkt' which in the end right on **-**-2011 didn't know what's on his mind at that time, he express love by holding my hands first *i knew that's conventional, but whatever* then asked me whether I love him and want to be his sweetheart or not. Whoaaaaaaa still can imagine the butterflies in my tummy when I answered 'yes' with a nod :'') by the way, clearly remembered after that sweet-moment it was rain and he go home by taxi because his knee got surgery.

     First month anniversary, second month ....third .....fourth....oh well I don't know how long we've been through as lovers. Certainly, in that months we through full with conflict and fight until we decided to split up. Had three months avoiding, but still check each' condition. Day by day, week by week, we keep contact again, we near back then.

     Precisely, our relationship (not as lovers) become closer and closer, more and more comfortable. Our communication is much better, we're getting know and understand about each other' character, have passed happy, sad, difficult time and I'm more convinced to be with him. Later, don't know what made him feel should be completely separated. He asked me to 'go' first, and he would 'go' too.

     Of course it's not easy and not hard enough because it's terribly hard to do. Not about only how to let go, but to sincere when seeing he try to escape and seek another....







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2 comments:

dimas hananta said...

about dilemma to make a decision.. is always a matter.. :) and my advice, you need to hear a song, or maybe a full album.. romantic album called "love notes acoustic" by sabrina.. that song tell us about the art of letting go.. for now, but not forever.. :D
warm regards,
dimas hananta

The Matchless of Me said...

Hahaha love note acoustic? well, let me find that song yaa. Okaay :D